One week left & a change of heart

Just one week left of total relaxation. Part of me is really sad that I will have to leave but the other part of me is ready to get going and start my semester. School doesn't start for another 2 weeks but I am leaving in one to head over to New Orleans. 14 of my XDA sisters, including myself, are going to spend a week in Lowernine to help clean up the place a bit; I'm really excited! After that 4 other girls and myself who are going on the trip are leaving a day early to go to Greensboro to see Justin Bieber in concert...which I can't wait for either!

The other day something happened to me, I was just sitting in my kitchen and looking at something and all of a sudden it hit me with how nervous I am to be going to Africa this summer. From the moment I found out I was accepted to the trip I had felt nothing but joy and anxiousness to get there as soon as I could. The nervousness took over my whole self and I shut down completely. I was shocked at how scared I got thinking about my trip and how I am going to be in charge of these kids. I am only one person and I am scared that I may not be what they need. I know that the preparation will come with time but I am terrified that I will be a terrible teacher to these precious babies. I was reading Kisses for Katie today and she wrote that there are up to 164.8 million needy children in the world, there are also 2.1 billion people that claim to be Christians. Did you know that if 8% of the 2.1 billion Christians in this world cared for one more child who was needy...there wouldn't be any statistics left? I didn't know that either, until today, and it completely changed everything for me. I have never been one to speak exactly how I feel religiously but reading this book is teaching me so much; and I feel through Katie's words I am developing a relationship with God that I never expected to develop. I am still nervous for Africa but I have 135 days to only build my relationship stronger and feel that this is going to be something I am not choosing to do but something I have to do, for Him and the children.